Mm. He's so nice. Nice like rice! He's a sixth former at my school, it's not the same Luke in my art class. He's very tall, but that's alright because so am i. He's got light blonde hair but everyone says it ginger, i don't really care though because i like him so much that it's got to that point where i don't care what he does or what he looks like, that i just want to be with him. Even though i hardly am, i only get to see him in school, he'll be in his last year now. He's a friend though, he knows who i am is what i mean! He's so cool it's unbelieveable. He's not bothered about anything and really laid back. Probably because he smokes so much dope. He's Ben's best friend's older brother. Geddit? That's how i know him, so i do hang out with him outside school but not that much and it's very rare that i do. I don't know if he likes me really, he has my mobile number but i don't have his. And at school he always says he'll text me so we can meet up and get stoned. But he never does! He always blows me off. So i don't know if he likes me or what? I never have any luck with boys! I'm reading a book about a girl that has had it with being messed about with pathetic boys and meets a grown man and falls in love with him but she's only 17 and he's 29 but they both fall in love with eachother, it's so cute. It's how they have to cope with the girls parents and stuff like that. It's really good.

YEYYY !!

My tongue's still pierced. My mum made me take it out and i thought it had healed up but NOPE! So i can put my barbell back in now :-)

I've decided i'm going to not fancy Mattie. Even though i do, sooo much! But i'm not allowed to because i know nothing will happening between us and there's no point in me getting myself worked up when i'm just gunna be knocked back. So i've to get over him. I had a dream about Ben last night, it was when we were going out and i invited him to sleep at mine and he said he would come later on so i went home but he never showed up so i decided i was gunna sleep at his, so i packed my stuff and a condom! Then started walking to his but he lived in a caravan for some reason, i was really happy though and buzzin'. But when i got to his caravan he didn't seem too pleased to see me and i found out his ex girlfriend was there, Linzy! So he'd been cheating on me, i was gutted. I don't know why i dreamt that though because that didn't even happen.

Why do people say "little old me" when they describe themselves? Mostly younger people, they're not even old. They make it sound like they've been around for centuries.

We went down to the skatpark on Friday night, was really good. Tasha was there too, well, at first when we got down there Tasha, Murray, Tom & Joe were sitting on the field, Tom & Joe was sharing a cigar. I was talking to Tasha while Ally went to sit on her own with Murray and Jess was drinking some Cherry Lambreini (cant spell!) then Murray went on this rope swing tied to a tree & fell off, it was well funny. He's wicked is Murray, i can't believe how skinny he is though!

Big brothers on soon. In about 10 minutes. So if i haven't finished this in 10 minutes i've missed some. I spent ages yesterday waiting for it to come on last night & watched Deal or No deal (which im not bothered about cus that shows mint) and when it started i went down to make some toast. :-| And i dont know why! So i missed some. It's like i've got something wrong with me, maybe i'm mentally disabled in some way. It makes me do stupid stuff. Like walk into doors or insult myself. I did that today, insulting myself. Not walk into a door, although i did do that once when Ally was here. We were going downstairs to get a drink and we were slow motion running, obviously because we're spackers, and i turned around to look at her & ran straight into a door handle. I even fell over & everything, it was well painful. And obviously Ally being the wonderful friend she is just laughed. But eventually we did get the drinks we planned on getting & i think i deserved mine.

I didnt get a lift home from school today so i had to walk. I walked with dean though and like i havent seen him in ages since he left year 11. They properly break up friday, he's got his last exam. French or sumat i think. So i wont see any of them for aaaages probably. Which im gutted about. I wont get to see ben as much either :-(  i was telling dean about something ben said to me & he said "you're still not over ben, you're not going out anymore!" & i was like. Yeah, i know :-( i havent seen ben in ages though.

In other news, my day was okay today :-) I watched Big Brother last night, was amazing (as always) :-D I'm sad! I was talking to Ally last night as well because i always ring her when Big Brother's on (again, that is why i'm mentally retarded) but i kept talking to her when it's finished, i wasn't supposed to be on the phone though. I was meant to be asleep but our calls are free so no one is non the wiser. Except me obviously. I was well tired but she wouldn't let me go haha, i said to her "I have to go, i won't get up in the morning & i'll be late for school again" then she just paused & after a while of nothing she said "Do you know how geeky that sounded?" AND I SAID. "Yes, i do. But no one else is in this conversation & frankly, my dear, i'm too tired to care" And hung up.